Hopes For Germany

I've decided I really want to go on this school trip to Germany. It's the Holocaust tour and that is one of my favorite parts of history to study. But the one problem is my parents. They won't let me do anything by myself. So, I've wrote all the details, on a piece of paper and left it on their night stand. Hopefully, they'll get back to me soon.

Basically, my birthday is next Saturday and I don't really have anything to do and I don't really want anything so I'm putting this out there for my parents to just let me go as my birthday gift. Also, I put on the paper that I wouldn't get an allowance until the trip was over. (Like 7 months people!)

I know they don't want to lose me but I've never really done anything big on my own and it's irritating not having that freedom. I'm supposed to go to Florida after Christmas but that's with a soccer team so no adventurous stuff will happen. Also, a plus is the teacher taking us is one of my best friend's mom and she's done a trip every year for like ten years.

I won't miss any school. I could fundraise almost all the money. The company doing the tours has a thing where if you start early you only have to pay like $100 a month. I just really want some freedom. Hopefully they'll let me go. Cross your fingers and pray for me!!!!

Song of the Day: "Fingerprints" by Katy Perry

This Circle Never Ends...

"This circle never ends and it's time you face it..."

Lyrics from a band named Paramore. I'm not sure if the song is called 'This Circle' or 'Circle'. I think it describes life in some way. That things don't end until you finally face it and I have to face life.

I have realized somethings over the past few days. For one of the first times in my life I'm having some guy problems and I think I know how I want to end it but I also don't want it to end.

But it's very unhealthy for me to be going back and fourth with this guy. One day he completely ignores me, the next he won't stop talking to me. After last year's homecoming, I never wanted to talk to him and could care less if he lived or died. Now, I just want it to be like we never met.

I know it's wierd but he likes me but he made me realize I don't like him anymore. The other day he asked me why I liked him. I was shocked because I couldn't think of one good reason why I liked him. So, at that moment I knew I had just gotten used to the feeling of liking him that I originally forgot why I liked him. So, I need to end this before it goes on any longer.

In other news I turn 16 in 2 weeks!!!!! School starts tomorrow. Not so excited but the faster it starts the faster it ends. I also have soccer tryouts tomorrow. But I'm pretty sure I'll make it since I've been on varisty for the past 2 years. For my update on my quad. It's better but not as good as it could be doing.

Song of the Day: "Can't Go Back" by Hedley

It's Been a While.

I haven't been on here in a while because a lot has been happening. I went to this college soccer camp and it was pretty intense. I pulled my quad the first day and sucked for the next couple days but I think it was definitely worth going to.

I've also been getting ready for school to start. I'm waiting for that and this year of high school soccer to be over. I miss my club team so much!!! After going from club to high school you realize how good you have it. On club you have amazing girls that want to play and want to win. I'm not going to say any names but the girls on my HS team are getting ridiculous. Today is my first practice in a week. So, I'm not really looking forward to going.

I saw my best friends today ad they, once again make my life worth living. I am also going to get braces. But once again the money stuff screwed us up. I wanted to get them on wednesday, seeing as school starts next monday but we couldn't make the payment on time so I have to wait another couple of weeks. It kind of sucks but once again I'll have to get over it.

That's all for now.

Song of the day: "When I Get Home, You're So dead" by Mayday Parade