Hopes For Germany

I've decided I really want to go on this school trip to Germany. It's the Holocaust tour and that is one of my favorite parts of history to study. But the one problem is my parents. They won't let me do anything by myself. So, I've wrote all the details, on a piece of paper and left it on their night stand. Hopefully, they'll get back to me soon.

Basically, my birthday is next Saturday and I don't really have anything to do and I don't really want anything so I'm putting this out there for my parents to just let me go as my birthday gift. Also, I put on the paper that I wouldn't get an allowance until the trip was over. (Like 7 months people!)

I know they don't want to lose me but I've never really done anything big on my own and it's irritating not having that freedom. I'm supposed to go to Florida after Christmas but that's with a soccer team so no adventurous stuff will happen. Also, a plus is the teacher taking us is one of my best friend's mom and she's done a trip every year for like ten years.

I won't miss any school. I could fundraise almost all the money. The company doing the tours has a thing where if you start early you only have to pay like $100 a month. I just really want some freedom. Hopefully they'll let me go. Cross your fingers and pray for me!!!!

Song of the Day: "Fingerprints" by Katy Perry

This Circle Never Ends...

"This circle never ends and it's time you face it..."

Lyrics from a band named Paramore. I'm not sure if the song is called 'This Circle' or 'Circle'. I think it describes life in some way. That things don't end until you finally face it and I have to face life.

I have realized somethings over the past few days. For one of the first times in my life I'm having some guy problems and I think I know how I want to end it but I also don't want it to end.

But it's very unhealthy for me to be going back and fourth with this guy. One day he completely ignores me, the next he won't stop talking to me. After last year's homecoming, I never wanted to talk to him and could care less if he lived or died. Now, I just want it to be like we never met.

I know it's wierd but he likes me but he made me realize I don't like him anymore. The other day he asked me why I liked him. I was shocked because I couldn't think of one good reason why I liked him. So, at that moment I knew I had just gotten used to the feeling of liking him that I originally forgot why I liked him. So, I need to end this before it goes on any longer.

In other news I turn 16 in 2 weeks!!!!! School starts tomorrow. Not so excited but the faster it starts the faster it ends. I also have soccer tryouts tomorrow. But I'm pretty sure I'll make it since I've been on varisty for the past 2 years. For my update on my quad. It's better but not as good as it could be doing.

Song of the Day: "Can't Go Back" by Hedley

It's Been a While.

I haven't been on here in a while because a lot has been happening. I went to this college soccer camp and it was pretty intense. I pulled my quad the first day and sucked for the next couple days but I think it was definitely worth going to.

I've also been getting ready for school to start. I'm waiting for that and this year of high school soccer to be over. I miss my club team so much!!! After going from club to high school you realize how good you have it. On club you have amazing girls that want to play and want to win. I'm not going to say any names but the girls on my HS team are getting ridiculous. Today is my first practice in a week. So, I'm not really looking forward to going.

I saw my best friends today ad they, once again make my life worth living. I am also going to get braces. But once again the money stuff screwed us up. I wanted to get them on wednesday, seeing as school starts next monday but we couldn't make the payment on time so I have to wait another couple of weeks. It kind of sucks but once again I'll have to get over it.

That's all for now.

Song of the day: "When I Get Home, You're So dead" by Mayday Parade

Wanting to Leave so bad...

Right now I couldn't be more upset with my family. It seems the majority of the things I do are getting me in trouble.

For example: I went to my friend Danielle's house. I had been at my house about an hour earlier to get my phone charger because my phone was dying. I told my mom this. So, for about an hour my family was trying to call. I did not know due to the fact I had a dead phone. This means for an hour my family was horribly worried about me not calling. I don't undertsand this because they drop me off at my friend's Randi and Bailey's house and never bother to pick me up, call, or even mention when they'll be back.

Example #2: I went to the park for the fourth of July. [By the Way: HAPPY 4th!!!]. I forgot money so I called my dad and asked him to bring it to me since I have not gotten my provisional license yet. We live about 3 minutes away from te park. My dad started yelling at me for forgetting it so I told him not to come. He comes anyways and circles the park looking for me. I did not know he was there because I told him NOT to come. So, he goes home and my mom calls back to yell at me for making him drive the whole 3 minutes there and the 3 minutes back.

Example #3: I have been trying to find new sheets for my bed. I went through about 3 packages today trying to find the right size. My mom just said we'd put te other ones on my bed because we couldn't find the right size. I didn't know she was talking about the old ones and so I said, "Which ones?" She starts yelling about what a bad child I am and how embarrassing I am. Saying I'll never be allowed to do anything again and claiming that I am a spoiled brat that gets everything I want. Then she starts talking about how much moneyshe spent on my soccer. And that just pissed me off there because she got me into the sport when I was 6. And it's not my fault I'm good at it.

So. this is what I've been dealing with. Right now, I have been calm and taken their yelling but if one more person yells at me, I'm going to go off. I don't care anymore. I've had a horrible week and I thought the family was supposed to be there to help you through things like this but they just make it worse.

I have started all my colleges letters so I can leave this God foresaken house as soon as possible.

Song of the Day: "For The Nights I Can't Remember" by Hedley

Too much too even pronounce...

First off I would like to congradulate the German National Team for defeating Portugal in the Quarter Finals of the Euro 2008 tournament. I wish them luck and hope they claim the title. If they don't win then Spain better pick up the slack and win.

Next I would like to say that the future of someone is the most mysterious thing. I have been going crazy wondering how my life is going to turn out. I am going to be a junior in high school. I'm not rich enough to go to college without a scholarship. I want to play soccer but I also want to do things that soccer would get in the way of.

So here's to all the confused teens out there. Trust me, I'm in the same boat that is stuck in this unbearable ocean.

Todays link is a link to help kids. So, just doing even a little bit counts.

http://www.chrf.org

Song of the Day: "Dance or Die" Family Force 5

$ $ $

Money basically rules the world at this point. How do I know because my family is constantly worrying about it. My brother doesn't want to try to go to a good college even though he is capabe of it just because he doesn't want my parents to worry about the money. I personally think it's nice of him to care but he might end up ruining his future.

I've been invited to play with an older soccer team in two tournaments, one in Texas and one in Florida. I might not be able because it costs too much for just me to go. I'm skipping all my soccer camps that I usually go to and I am even skipping warped tour (heartbroken).

So, for now I have to just stay focused on soccer. Mainly college and scholarships. Because gas prices are getting ridiculous especially since we travel fifty miles a day for work, sports, or just other things we need. So, moneys tight but what choice do we have.

Song of the Day: "You'll Only Make It Worse" by New Years Day

Semi-Finals Result

So, we played actual soccer and Riot kicked the ball up the field and ran on to it. So how do they beat us by like 6? I have no idea. I don't remember the final score. But I know it's about 5 or 6 to 0. We actually played a whole lot better than they did but they were faster and the final score is all that matters.

So, now we will wait for tryiuts and see who comes on the team. While I wait for HS soccer to start. Only four days left of school and I need to study for my chemistry final so I can get at least a D instead of an F on it. I suck at chemistry.

Song of the Day: "Perfect" by Simple Plan

Music vs. The World

I recently had to do a project about music. But not just that. If music causes teens to commit violent acts. After reading the articles about the Columbine shootings and the girl's death blamed on Slayer's "ritual" songs. I have come to one conclusion.

The media is stupid. Even though I aspire to be a journalist in this screwed up industry, I hope to put some truth behind it and make it better. I researched this topic. Basically the lawyers couldn't find a motive. So, go into the kid's room and look at the Slayer posters and blame it on them. Gaurentee if those kids had Britney Spears on their wall, they would not blame it on her.

Society doesn't like the image that they put out as a band and that is what it has come to in today's world. This is different, blame it on them.

Today's link is the Slayer Official Site. They deserve some good press right about now. I'm not much into heavy metal but here's to Slayer!

http://www.slayer.net

Song of the Day: "Shake Down" by Akon

State Cup Semi-Finals 08

We won! ...and then we lost. We won our first game against Flame 2-0 which pretty much gaurentees our spot in the semi-finals. But we lost to previous state champs 0-3. Our game was off and one of our best players was hurt, but you can't make excuses. So, in about a week and a half are semi-finals. I'm thinking we will play Riot, I hope not but we probably will.

Today's link is Neopets. Let the kids side of you out. ( 8

http://www.neopets.com

Song of the day: "Brighter" by Paramore

State Cup Game 1 vs. Flame

So, my team played our first game for state cup today. We only have to win one game out of our two to go on to Semi-finals. It was crazy intense but we won 2-0. So, pretty much gaurentees us a spot in Semi-finals. Tomorrow we play the #1 team in the state. We don't need to win but it would be pretty sick if we did. Last time we played them we lost 2-1. It was a very tough game.

Wish my team luck. We're going to need it.



Daily Song ~ "Emotion" by Destiny's Child

Florida...

Today was very weird. My friend Brittinni is moving to Florida this summer which is about 1000 miles away and it pretty much just hit me today about how much I'm going to miss her. I've decided to giver her the ultimate goingaway gift!!!! I don't know what it is yet but I will soon and I think se'll love it, whatever it's going to be.

So, new link today that I think you should check out.

http://peta.com

If you check this out, I'm not saying you should be a vegatarian because I'm not. I still support Peta but I still eat meat. But I still am against wearing fur and the mistreatment of and animals. I also will not step foot in any type of KFC.

So, this isn't a 'me hating you because you eat meat', it's a 'you should take a look at this and see if it appeals to you' type of thing.

Thanks for the comments on the last post. <3

Song of the Day: "Go Go Gadget Flow" by Lupe Fiasco

First Blog Post

So, I've never been so caught up in my whole life as of right now. I can't figure things out ad it gets frustrating. But no matter what I have to get through it. But after I think about it, all the complaining I do with my own life is nothing compared to what some kids are going through. So I'm putting this link in right now...

http://invisiblechildren.com/

Please help the kids in this Civil War. AOh and if you have some links that you think some people should know about, please send them to me.

Song of the Day: "Maybe I'm A Ghost" by Sing It Loud